I was studying this evening, but in that meditative state (between sleeping and wakefulness), I had a couple "Aha" moments. It may have had something to do with the TV show I had watched while eating dinner. A couple friends of mine affectionately call it, "Zen Cop."
The first moment I had, well, actually, let's start with the second:
I don't know about you, but I sometimes feel constrained by labels. Through much of my life, I've avoided labelling. It's a box that people want to put you in to keep things neat and tidy. However, I have experienced, to my great surprise, a situation when I was irritated by the lack of definition and therefore the lack of labelling/categorization. The lack of information made me feel a bit powerless. So, I realized, in thinking on Aha number 1, that in describing the situation, I could say that Aha number 2 was that there is a time and a place for everything, including labelling.
The real Aha, however, was in reflecting on the above described (sort of) situation, I had a sudden realization. I don't know if I suddenly saw what was there all along, or if something in me reached the point where the truth changed (in many mental situations, perception IS reality, from a certain point of view). The situation where I had been struggling in a fog of unlabelledness, which I had been perceiving as negative -- all of a sudden was completely positive. I was free because I had never been pinned down in the first place. That very lack of definition was singular, and therefore unique, special, and powerful. It was beyond mere "looking at the bright side."
It was a very strange moment, and it's still with me. I expect it to fade, but I'm enjoying it while it lasts. I hope to be able to remember how to do it again. How would one recreate the moment? I don't know. Perhaps by taking a situation or circumstance and playing what if --
What if this circumstance is not negative, but supremely positive? What if what is false is true and what is true is false? What if the world were turned upside down?