2.07.2005

As long as I'm procrastinating...

...I might as well produce a post for my blog.

I've been feeling very frustrated with myself lately. I'm supposed to be writing. Not this instance, because "it's five minutes to bedtime," not to mention I've wasted two hours (or more) already, what's five more minutes.
It all starts very simply. "I'm just checking my email." "I'm just..." prefaces a bunch of similar statements. I'm just Procrastinating!!!!! Because 10 minutes turns into 30, turns into an hour, turns into two, etc.
Where's the willpower I know is in here?

ARGH!

2/8/05 Addendum: Not only did I waste time all evening, I wasted time even in my dreams. I dreamt last night that I was at a party, but spent the whole time talking to someone on my cellphone. I think they were lost and I was trying to talk them through the directions to the party. Then, when they got to the party, I had to leave right away to deliver something insignificant (in the middle of the night) to somewhere about an hour away. When I woke up, I was very irritated I spent my sleeping hours not resting. It felt a lot like when I dream about work.
But, I have new hope for this evening, because Feb. 9th is the beginning of the Chinese New Year. What an auspicious time to reform! OK, so I don't need the beginning of something to start afresh - every new moment is an opportunity for that - but come on, I'm grasping at straws here. Stay tuned for a report on my success (failure is not an option).

1 comment:

The Herdsman said...

Oh young grasshopper, I too have been feeling like I've been procrastinating (acutally more like mired in inaction) for the last few years. A very wise man, well known to you and I, recntly trminfrf m that we can't always see all the things our life is pursuing. I knew he was right, its just that nor all the work my higher-self was doing wasn't meeting my ego's Master Plan.

You are well in tune with your higher-self, so you must trust it to keep you on track to achieve the work it needs to do here.

So my questin to myself, I'll pose to you too my dear dear sister ... "who left your ego in charge?!?"